Do not mistake my quite for dunce
for every second a new thought is formed
in my brain, it is stored
yes, just twist the dagger in a little more
as I moan in pain, I refuse to satisfy you with my tears
just a little air Oh just a tiny space
in there, a method to my madness
draft, review, finalize, and publish it all in your honor
they call it revenge but I call it Revenge
the author of your pain, will I be
and trust me I know how it ends
I wrote the book.
As she kept going on and on about her friend and some other things that I unconsciously drown out. I was deaf to her words, at that point I remember that I had bills to pay before it gets due. Ooh, and don’t forget to reply mum’s text before she calls…..maybe I should order pizza, cause I don’t want to do any the dishes….I still have to go-
“D, what do you think i should do?” she asked .
It turns out, I missed a huge part of the conversation. Am definitely not a good listener; there is just something about story’s.
The errand was simple and direct.
“Kaima” her aunt more-or-less yelled
“yes aunty” kaima hurried to the call
“Go to the shop, and give this to your uncle,” she placed a small pile of money and a plate of food in a bag, then gave it to her.
That was it. A simple trip to her aunt’s shop, a familiar task that has become a habit without option. She must have forgotten a sacrifice or two, because the gods were definitely not on her side.
After walking passed the women who chorused “witch” like it was her name, she kept walking towards the direction of her aunt’s shop when she heard it.
Memory fails me,
where my armor end, and
where my skin begins
an ultimate search
through ripped veil would I know you at all
it wasn’t my fault echos around me
IT’S NOT ABOUT SELF-IMPROVEMENT;ITS ABOUT EARNING APPROVAL AND ACCEPTANCE
I cannot further stress how much I hate my job but I find myself working hard when certain responsibilities are placed on me. Most people live with the delusion that they don’t need people approval, but i will be the first to rid myself of such lie.
I was at work busy with a batch of assignment, at that moment my boss needed a different batch done ASAP. She came straight to my station to give it to me, but she saw I was already busy with an important batch whereas the person behind me was not. she asked what was the name of the person behind my station, I replied, after which she said “I don’t trust him, I will leave this here, when you are done with that please complete this.”
This really surprised me, because the batch she gave me should be out of the building by 2:30pm, and the time was 1:40pm. It takes about 30 mins to get a batch done, PLUS I was already busy with an important batch. Although I got both batches out in due time, but this made me realize that when a responsibility is placed upon you, you do not want to disappoint. Like I said, I hate my job and I could careless on what goes out at the right time, but there is something about being giving a responsibility; especially when the person absolutely believes you can do it. Brent brown said, and I quote
“Many people think of perfectionism as striving to be your best, but it not about self-improvement; it’s about earning approval and acceptance.”
The illusion that every story should have a happy ending is a delusion in itself.
Source: Fairy-tale Evils: Dark matters.
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