Alive!

I’m alive!

I know when we grew up our shadows grew up too, but

I’m alive

all my life I’ve being afraid of falling backwards, and moving forward, but

I’m alive

my progress was like making faces in the dark, but

move on I will!

oxygen reminds me of what I have lost, yeah

I’m alive

when the wolves come out to play I run and hide

in that moment I think back to everything, and i realize

Am still breathing, I am alive!!

Dark Hollow

Help! Help! am drowning,

In the violent sea of the promises you never made

you bore me yet you buried me with every breath

your footstep, a dirge to my fragile heart

My heartbeat sycophants with thy footstep as you welcome your presence

the one picture of me smiling is a dream in it’s making

this look of sadness bares no resemblance to the dark hole in the chest you hollowed

It started like a movie with no hopes for a happy ending, then made the nightly news

The scenes play out in slow motion  in my head everyday

I don’t know how to fast forward, if I did, I would memorize it

The sheep she led me to wants more than I can speak

If I see a bright light I promise I will follow.

I though the hell was never-ending so I took to my wrist

turns out you were right I am a coward indeed!

tracks meet in your car and complicates my plans for you

even then, your memories like spiked torn in my being

the part you played in reforming my silhouette is the best of your effort

I don’t know what your truth is, if I did I would bury it

Someone, tell me what happened after the first shot

I don’t remember any of it, don’t want to, but tell me

I wish I was innocent in a bad way but I found that i am reticent in my own strength

I wish this heart could bleed out right

I won’t fight it, fight how rare and beautiful it is to merely exist.

 

 

 

 

 

Outlaws

I would say love your flaws, and

live for your mistakes if they weren’t coming

If i wasn’t comatose in pain

baby, Run

They found the evidence

My love, Run

Because they saw the evidence you didn’t bother to hide

Run,

because your pride is a demon in disguise

And my love is a true example of broken glass

Run, my pride

For, when it is all done i will still be out here waiting to be outlaws

There are no winners when the die is cast.

 

Author

Do not mistake my quite for dunce

for every second a new thought is formed

in my brain, it is stored

yes, just twist the dagger in a little more

as I moan in pain, I refuse to satisfy you with my tears

just a little air Oh just a tiny space

in there, a method to my madness

draft, review, finalize, and publish it all in your honor

they call it revenge but I call it Revenge

the author of your pain, will I be

and trust me I know how it ends

I wrote the book.

 

 

 

Void

Like a swirling black hole

that turns into a hallucination

It sucks, and just keeps sucking

It demands, outrageous but committing

It presence, yielding yet terminable

the feeling, melancholy yet content

we all have that thing, they say

that reduces us to nothing when offered

slaves to our needs

yet, you judge me for mine

I know, i know what i have

don’t try to understand my void, if you don’t know the story

 

 

Penchant

This is all for you

I promise, it’s all for you

I will lay my life for you

I took the offer for you

The marks are for you, all of them, my sign of love for you

The curfews were for you

My short fuses were because of you, all for your sake

I believed you when you  promised I will be safe

another lie from the front line

ooh, I can’t wait

for when I can put it out of my mind long enough.

 

 

Chum Chum

We signed our name on the face of history upon our birth

our eyes were well acquainted with darkness

until the brutal interruption of light

a demon in disguise

next, we put our faith on a faceless existence, but still in doubt

we have barely caught a glimpse of what it all means

before the consequences of living in-between

hit harder than the pull of gravity

no winners, when the die is cast.