I always thought I didn’t have an addictive trait or personality; boy, did I underestimate the incessant need to forget.
Angel of small death
Hear Hear
Tag: journal
You should have known
Doing the right thing is a decision, which in many cases means you stand alone.
Sebastian Kurz
Ever went in so deep,
and fell so fast?
Then I took my leave,
I waited outside
now they all have questions in their gaze
I took it, and it was right!
If I know one thing, is I cannot just be a peach.
Something gotta ease my mind.
I know my weakness but i have an armor now.
Middle Ground
“I never liked the middle ground-the most boring place in the world.”
Louise Berliawsky Nevelson
I have fallen in love with the middle ground
my soul paid the price,
not by choice, I must say
the pressure of just being.
I reckon, I have heard someone say “the middle is the best.“
right?
What a coward I have become,
twisting the definition of brave to liberate myself.
Thank God for small miracles, and move on.
Some people have it worse, I hear
So, be thankful for the middle ground.
Ahh, damn it
damn it all to hell, am taking that step.
Am holding a banner for me,
its upside down, but the rumors are true
stick and stones.
Okay…
Alright, took me a while, but I have come to the conclusion that we are indeed in control of our happiness, but it takes maximum effort and dedication. A dedication that I am currently struggling with but nevertheless striving towards!
‘Happiness is free’ everyone says, but it’s so hard to garner the strength when there are several thought going through your head….but I cannot stress how important it is to push on and eventually make yourself happy, cause no else would do that for you as every one have their own problems to deal with.
P.S I am thinking of picking up photography🤔…….especially nature types, more people gotta appreciation our fine earth!✌️
Glorious ruins
I know you found me
I know you love me
And as the seasons cultivates patients,
If you are not done working
am not done waiting
and while am waiting
am not waiting
As heaven lives in me
Grace and Choice
I haven’t understood a bar of music in my life, but I have felt it.
Igor Stravinsky
I will tell you what works for me when everything just seems overwhelming.
Music!
The powers of music is so underrated until you actually feel the effect on a deeper level. I can firmly say it surpasses the effect of meditation. Close your eyes, make it loud and just listen. Just flow into its rhythms and let it sip into your soul after which you come out restored.
Its almost like a warning sign for me. Once I start feeling the need to listen to slow, almost sad, reflective music I know i need to take a deep breath and regroup before it dives into a depressive state. So, I do just that!, I let go, close my eyes, have the volume up and just listen to the likes of Mumford and Sons, Bon Iver, Andrew Belle, Sleeping at last etc. It takes a while, but after that I find the extra strength to dot my l’s
If you haven’t tried it, you should!
Thinking……
It is much easier to say people are different that actually acknowledging the fact. My motto in life has always been ‘treating people the way I want to be treated’ and that is causing some philosophical problems for me.
Even if people are different, I believe, there are certain thing e.g behaviors in life that remains constant in every human. My personal experience with friendship has put me in some sort of dilemma as I question the essence of friendship and my assumed open-mindedness.
“doing that sounds okay to you?”
“yeah, why”
“cause i find it ridiculous and disappointing”
“I don’t know what you want me to say, that just the way I am…..I do the same thing with other friends!”
“and they have no problem with that?”
“no, everybody is different and that’s me”
“okay, right……….!”
what happens when what you seem to think is open knowledge in reference to friendship is actually not open at all? do you reevaluate or just forget the friendship? asking for a friend!
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